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What's life, without you?

2012-01-08T15:52:00.000+08:00

A night @ powerhouse..

2011-11-14T14:53:00.001+08:00

Once bitten, twice shy..

2011-10-22T03:40:00.000+08:00

I don't need many friends, or perhaps I don't have many friends. Because I love deducting untrue ones around me. I don't regard anyone as a friend if they always fail to be there for me.

Reality..

2011-10-14T22:41:00.003+08:00

Life is pretty much a bitch, for me. My backbone are like getting worst yet I'm always lazy to go for checkups. I'm sick of working, neither do I wants to study because I don't find any interesting course for me to attend. I just wanna enjoy and play all day long without having worries on money issue. But that's merely impossible unless I'm born with a golden spoon in mouth.

-Sometimes, it's okay to dream. Sometimes, it's okay to miss the past..

*DearestBoy!*

1 year 4 months and 10 days, it's not a long period of time, but all these while, things doesn't come easy for us. I remembered before we officially get together, we've first been through 2 years over of distances, ups and downs, leaving as a friend and coming back. Now, everything is within our control. Please learn to cherish. You can put down your pride in this relationship, so I guess it meant alot to you. You always told me that you'll never give up, you always said that I'm the only one who you've been giving in so much to, you always said that you've never treat others like how good you treated me. And so I decided to give it my best shot, I gave you what I can. I love you like I've never loved anyone before. I hope things will go on smoothly for you, for me, for us. Remember what you've promised, I love you..

*Universal Studio with NSL.*

Your existence, my misery.

2011-08-18T02:19:00.000+08:00

Letting go of what had already loses its meaning rather than chasing memories back alone..
Your existence is my worst misery.

I'm still searching for what's best for me.. (:

P.a.s.t

2011-07-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

Why is the past always worth so much to reminiscent? Was it too good, too awesome to be forgotten? Or was it the present is too lousy to be compared? I just miss the past you, the past me, the past us and the way we used to be..

2011-06-15T01:50:00.000+08:00

Changed of job, shorter working time, higher pay with CPF but of course there's not much freedom compared to my previous job. But well, new start in new environment! (:

A gift from god, my dearest bro.. ♥

2011-05-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

Close to perfection..

2011-03-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

Busy likea bee~
Busy working, long hours, legs aching, backbone aching, tiring, lack of sleep everything and anything bad! No time for computer, no time for drama, no time for blogging, no time for so many many things! Last day of atrium fair tomorrow at CSM, 3 days break and gotta continue working for 2 weeks straight without any off days.

Babyyyyyyyyyyyy~
Thanks for coming down to have lunch with me almost everyday, thanks for being there with me and endure all my attitudes and everything whenever I'm feeling restless. You know I don't mean it. We don't quarrel as much as before anymore, perhaps is because we've grown up as time ticked, as day passes.

Xoxo.

I thought....

2011-01-29T03:37:00.001+08:00

~~You're the reason for everything and thats my reason for not telling you everything..~~

~~你竟然身后还有一个她，~~

~~为何，又何必再次走得那么近？:(~~

B.i.d.g.o.o.d.b.y.e

2011-01-26T23:12:00.001+08:00

“ 请你不要一次又一次的动摇我的心，

一次又一次的让我感到伤心，就算是我求你。

既然选择了离开，就不要再回头。“

Backspace..

2011-01-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

" From your existence to your

ignorance is my worst misery.. "

哭着笑 , 最痛..

2011-01-16T16:32:00.005+08:00

~~就像在迷宫里迷失了方向，想走也走不出想回头也已经太晚了。掉入了不该掉入的陷阱。~~
~~遇见了好心人，能为你做的事竟让比朋友还要多许多，他的一举一动深深的打动了一班人的心。~~
~~在开始习惯和想念的时候，一转眼他早已转身而离开了。~~
~~留下身后的你在迷宫里默默地想起他的好，默默地思念着他曾经为你做过的一切，~~
~~默默地想起曾经拥有过的快乐。~~

~~一个人对你的好始终不会是永远，一个人对你的陪伴也不会长久。。~~

~~-/ 原来，陷阱是他一早就设定好的。~~

~~If distance are supposed to be kept far away, don't come anymore nearer.~~
~~不要再回头，让我忘了你是谁！~~

就算这一切是我一厢情愿！
!@#$%^&*!@#$%^#@!~~!@#$%^
太傻，太天真！我会忘了一切的兰回忆！

I don't wanna fall any deeper..

2011-01-07T23:41:00.003+08:00

Busy likea bee~~~~ Work, work work and still work. The only time where I can put down everything behind and concentrate working. Mind were to wonder around somewhere elses, I will start to make myself as busy as possible to stop thinking and prevent it from dragging my mood down. Perhaps, I like the life I'm having now. :) Aww, monday's schedule can really kill me! I guess I'll need roughly 2hours to travel there and 2hours to travel home. By the time I reach home will be around 12midnight alr?! And lunch alone, so pathetic! I don't like it! :( And shit! I think I'm suffering from migraine, I'm always having headache, and its always on the right side! Boohoo~

-/ Selfish mindset, I didn't want to share my thoughts. Countless of things had happened, eventually my emotion had been ups and downs too. You're just likea controller that takes control of my emotion. I know I shouldn't even have that thought but, I just couldn't help it. You'd never understand, no one will even understand! Mixed emotion, mixed feelings. I don't wanna fall any deeper, because I know there won't be an outcome between. I need a place to release all these inner thoughts, all these inner pain.
But never will I forget to bring a smile wherever I go..

~~看见了距离，你知道我是想你的！:(~~

I miss two babies! :(

I don't like childish people..

2011-01-03T00:36:00.001+08:00

I'm not going to let anything to ruins my own future anymore. My future, my life no one is going to take control of it. Its okay if I'm not able to study hard enough, but I can work hard enough to get whatever I want with my own ability. I don't regard anyone who related to me as a friend or whatsoever, once you did something to ruins my future, you can jolly well get off from my sight, my path, my future and my life. What I need is understanding people around, I need supporting people around, not people who find troubles, arguments or quarrels just because of small matter. I believe people around me is old enough to think for themselves and also others.
Just because I don't have the time to waste anymore!

~~你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳..~~

Reminiscence..

2010-12-20T03:19:00.000+08:00

Friends come and go, but memories doesn't fade. Once a friend, forever it will be. Be it whether you're able to get through obstacles together or not, they'll still stand apart of your memory just because it once happened to have them there with you..

Sudden urge of getting back to maple, I miss how old friends use to lepak in FM, 24hours doesn't matter too. As long as there's entertainment and there's fun. Hardcore mapling, sleepless night, skipping school, skipping meals, wasting $$ on cash, giving up everything and anything just to maple. And now I know, I won't have time for all these computer games anymore..

So far so good, though conflicts and argument always take place, but you've never fail to give in. After each and every disappointment that I've let you down, you've been forgiving enough too. Perhaps at times I'm really mad at you and used negative comments on you, you should know dearly that I don't mean it.. More obstacles will be heading ahead, I know we are able to go through all these ups and downs. We have been through so much in the past and finally fate brought us together, I promise I will cherish all the little bits and pieces you gave me. (: We don't make perfection, but we can choose to improve to make it near to perfection. I accept your imperfection, accept you for who you are, just because I love the way you are.. With Love!

I need a work like seriously, but........ In my 17 years of living, I had never once tried working. Pathetic much? Money roll to me please~ :( Shall hit the sack now, meeting babylye lateron and gonna stay overnight at bb's place. Kbye!

Happiness..

2010-12-14T13:53:00.003+08:00

Sheesha night.

Class Chalet..

In a blink of an eye, 1 year course in office skill had just ended. We've went through alot together, we've think of all kinds of outing to make us even bonding. Games that we played, jokes that we crapped, exams answer that we shared, every bits and pieces we went through I'd remember dearly. Although arguments do take place at times, but remember we're 8 for 1 and 1 for 8! Less chance of getting to higher nitec together, but nevertheless, we'll all meet up as and when we're free alright! With love..

Babyboy's Birthday Outing..

Happy belated birthday bb! I hope you enjoyed your birthday! I know you know I love you. <3 Finish up all your cso stuffs asap, and it won't be bothering you anymore. I know you can, just endure, as you know I'm always here for you..

Its not a dream..

2010-12-02T20:34:00.001+08:00

5 more days to end-of-year POA and BEO paper. I'm yet to study, just too lazy to read through or even study. So I guess I'll just flunk damn badly, its a waste actually. Been mugging so hard since the start of this office course and I'm giving up now when its just 5 more days away. My laziness ruins my cert, ruins my future and wasted a year! Life is too short to find regrets, time just don't wait.. But just someday I'll regret for not studying hard enough when I'm able to. Well.......forget about school's stuff, its driving me mad!

DECEMBER, please be a goodboy/girl okay! ^^

My happy pills, my pillar of strength. ♥

2010-11-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

♥A happy girl is a pretty girl! ^^

Been heading down to town area recently with jieying and tata. Also together with shujing and babyboy. Laughter, joy and happiness, I like! (Y) 1 more week to go, and welcome holiday! I'm so looking forward to december!

6thdec-town with jieying and tata!
7th/8th-POA & BEO paper.
9th/10th-Chalet.
11th/12th-Babyboy's birthday!
13th-Kbox and steamboat with bff!

& Picture speak a million words.

♥ ♥ ♥

Worthwhile..

2010-11-21T00:28:00.002+08:00

Yahk bauk wah ruk tur, wah ruk tur..

xoxo

Fairy tale..

2010-11-07T20:37:00.001+08:00

The existence of conflict and quarrels between us, is the reason that what makes this love to be even stronger. For every quarrels that happened, we tend to understand one another more than before. All I need is just a heart to feel and my soul to love. And never will I find regrets upon loving you. You've made changes to my life, to a much worth living one. Thanks for all those concern, motivation and support you gave all this while, appreciated! Also thanks for being sucha loving boy! (: Baby, I love you now, love you tomorrow, love you always and forever I will.. This will be the fairy tale I love to be trapped in.
-/ Just a short little dedication to my dearest boy, lovelove!

Deep down..

2010-11-02T22:07:00.007+08:00

Neither good things nor happy moment last a life-time. I don't mind leading a simple life, I don't mind not being rich, I just don't mind! At times, things just ruins my entire day again and again and again. No trust, no love. For being over sensitive, always causes argument or conflict to take place. Why not try being much understanding? Fairness does not exist in relationship, is either you're willing to give in more or give in less. Its not about how badly you're at fault and definitely not about how many times you apologise for wrong doings, but is about how much you love one another to be forgiving enough. If you were to only remember all those mistakes done and those negative stuffs, you'll never be able to see this path going on. There's a whole life-time for you to love, don't just pick up quarrels just for delaying of that few pathetic minutes/hours.

Afterall, learn how to forgive, forget and carry on with life..

Once upon a time...

2010-10-28T22:32:00.001+08:00

Thinking back upon the past is the most miserable thing on earth. Once, so much laughter, so much fun. Just a blink of an eyes, everything changes. Different people leading different life with different people around them. We tend to forget some good old ones because we're busy with the new ones. But the facts is, those that we once went through so much pain and joy with, is the best one who gives you the most strength to hold you up and never let you fall. In heart, they always stay.. -/ JiahuiSissy, Maiyeeting, Mabel! Drifted, still I miss you guys so..

Oh, hi stalkers!

2010-10-27T18:49:00.005+08:00

Past 24hours's..

Pictures speak a thousand words..

2010-10-25T14:58:00.002+08:00

Babyboy~

2010-10-24T23:06:00.005+08:00

Played around with blogskin from blogger, hard time figuring out the codes. Been ages since I last posted on blogger, much active in facebook instead. Aww~ School tomorrow, spelled b.o.r.e.d! & the hazy weather is god damn irritating! Lack of words, don't like blogging as much as before already.

-/♥ Bb, I felt blessed to have you with me. At times conflicts occurs and do make us go insane, but I believe for every quarrel that takes place it eventually brought us even closer..We're fated to meet and it was destiny that brings us together. Promise me a forever, and we'll walk down an eternity.. xoxo